to be honest, i think the author here best describes where i’m at with my body: confused. i am working on losing the (upwards of) 40 lbs. i gained in the past year after a brutal fall off of the wagon, so to speak.
does that i mean i only love myself when i’m the size/weight that someone(s?) determined i should be?
does it mean i don’t love myself (enough) b/c i’ve decided that staying at this weight and fighting to love myself more isn’t good enough for me, at least not right now?
i don’t know. no one knows. yet another battle i have to fight with myself, by myself.